Shower talk: Surreal

Do you ever just feel
Completely inferior and useless
Like a bug squished under a heel
For instance, you set yourself definitely doable and practical goals
And you try
But you just can't achieve them
And at nights, you cry
And you are occupied by things that don't matter that much
And they take up so much of your time
Your mind filled with clutter and such
You can't achieve your goals
You just fall into a void
Feeling lost
With guilt, you can't avoid
Like a sore loser
And there are all these other people out there
Much better than you are
And you're wondering just where
You went wrong
And why things are like this
And why you can't reach your goals
And what did you miss
And why your life is filled with unimportant things that are apparently "important"
It's a chaos
Doing something because you're obliged to do it
Not because you want to do it
You're at an utter loss
And that just eats up so much of your life
It makes you feel worthless
That's why, "Only pursue your passion", I'd say but
In this world, it's not possible
You have to do whatever it takes to make the cut
We are forced to go the society's way
We are forced to act a certain way
Our life is forced
A pressure that won't go away
Our life is controlled
Our minds have gone astray
Our life is chained
To think we don't even have control over own lifes is just
Scary
Surreal
In every way